Odio esas noches en que mi cuerpo olvida o se niega a dormir y tengo que convencerlo poco a poco.
Negociando, dándole razones y ejemplos de horribles experiencias pasadas, donde la falta de sueño fue el factor determinante de pésimas decisiones. Intentar escribir un texto a las 3 am sobre mi inhabilidad para conciliar el sueño, esperando que el hablar sobre ello me aburra lo suficiente como para que mi cuerpo se rinda.
Odio como todas las emociones del día elijen este momento para juntarse a charlar, como si mi cabeza fuera una cafetería de horarios nocturnos. Odio que el escribir ésto me lleve a buscar en la vasta red cosas como “estado onírico”, lo que me lleve a pensar si tal vez haya estado dormida todo este tiempo. Si sé esto porque Tyler sabe ésto. Probar tilo, leche, mantras, buscar audios de agua, buscar gente que esté despierta, dejar de buscar y volver a contar ovejas, buscar el origen de ese mito y terminar leyendo sobre la Guerra de Invierno y que Finlandia tenía ski troopers, reirte sola a las 3.30 am imaginando stormtroopers esquiando, darte cuenta inmediatamente que no es gracioso. Considerar una carrera escribiendo monólogos, recordar que ya estás en una carrera, recordar que esa carrera era la razón por la cual ya tenias que estar en estado REM a esta hora. Pensar seriamente en abandonar la idea de dormir, ya que no vale la pena forzar el sueño si no viene solo. Considerar terapia. Considerar la legalidad de la ingesta de tranquilizantes equinos. Alegrarme porque mañana ésto no se repite, calcular cuanta cafeína voy a necesitar para que mi cuerpo no vaya recordando todo lo que le impartí hoy en momentos inoportunos.

Oh. Ahí viene. Al fin.

I demand unconditional love and complete freedom. That is why I am terrible.

 - Tomaž Šalamun (via feellng)

opisthocoelicaudia:

godblessoursluts:

flappypussyz:

My coffee image

How the hell are you supposed to know how much coffee is left if the cup isn’t see through ???

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thesonicscrew:

GREATEST IMPROVISED LINE EVER

Ever finished a book? I mean, truly finished one? Cover to cover. Closed the spine with that slow awakening that comes with reentering consciousness?

You take a breath, deep from the bottom of your lungs and sit there. Book in both hands, your head staring down at the cover, back page or wall in front of you.

You’re grateful, thoughtful, pensive. You feel like a piece of you was just gained and lost. You’ve just experienced something deep, something intimate… Full from the experience, the connection, the richness that comes after digesting another soul.

[…]

It’s no surprise that readers are better people. Having experienced someone else’s life through abstract eyes, they’ve learned what it’s like to leave their bodies and see the world through other frames of reference. They have access to hundreds of souls, and the collected wisdom of all them.

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Beautiful read on why readers are, “scientifically,” the best people to date

Perhaps Kafka’s timeless contention that books are "the axe for the frozen sea inside us" applies equally to the frozen sea between us. 

(via explore-blog)

neil will love this one.

fluffymb:

The moment when the table turns.

I remember my son once asked me, “Did you ever, like, kiss in high school?” And I told him this long drawn-out story of how shy I was, how I finally got a girlfriend but she broke up with me because I was too shy to try to kiss her, and then I had another girlfriend but still couldn’t figure out kissing. The technique was always a big obstacle in my head, like, How do you kiss? Where does your chin go? Forget about anything beyond kissing-first base was a total mystery to me. So I’m telling my son this long story, and he listens patiently until he finally realizes where I’m going with it, and he says, “Dad, no-did you like Kiss in high school? Kiss, the band!” And I was, “Oh yeah, Kiss…they were good.”

gabifresh:

take no shit 2014

imsirius:

Daniel Radcliffe and Dane DeHaan on the sex scene [in Kill Your Darlings] that made headlines +

ceehu:

jamesmdavisson:

Yesterday at Pride in Chicago.

the cop smiling at him though haha

ceehu:

jamesmdavisson:

Yesterday at Pride in Chicago.

the cop smiling at him though haha